Okay, Sorry. Really I am. Last days of summer I wanted to get the most of all of them.
Starting with Saturday,
I wake up to my phone ringing. I answer and it's Mason. He's a good friend I guess you could say. He wants me to go biking with him. So I ask my mom if I really have to go to my family reunion and she says I don't have to. So I get up and get dressed. I start biking to Masons, I didn't know this because he goes to Catholic schools, which is really close to me. I think I'm almost to were he is suppose to meet me and I get a call on my cell phone as I see I man biking in the distance. I knew the phone call was from Mason and I answer it saying "Yep! I see you. Bye." I then hang up and keep biking. I find out it wasn't Mason at all. It was an old man. He calls me back saying "Uhm, That was an old man that just passed me. Retard." hahahha. I get to our meeting place which is really far out in the country. We both decide to go to his house because his parents are gone anyways. It took so long it seemed like. I'm not a good biker or runner either so I was out of breath. We get to his house and he gives me the tour. He has a really nice house and neighborhood. I don't like this boy more than a friend. I used to but that was a while ago. He likes my bestfriend Savannah which I mentioned in a previous post. He was talking about her the whole time I was there. No joke. He was talking about if I ever have Savannah over we should bike over and all this stuff. He likes her so much. It's really cute. Chantel and Anna kept calling saying he should come to the campground and stay. He acted like he was tired and said he couldn't. We were going to go to the mall with his sister for school shopping for him. We find out though that she gets done with work later then we thought. I tell him I'm going to go home and I leave. I get lost because I forgot to take a turn and bike around for like and hour. I was exasted. My father came to pick me up he wasn't mad thankfully. I get home and eat some supper and go out to Oniel Creek Campground with the family. I come to find out that Chantel and Anna along with Amanda J were at my campground. I hung out with them all night and probably told them too much about the summer. About breakups, fights, my thought on people. I think Amanda might go and tell people but I guess you never know.
I get back to my premant trailer and talk to my parents about going into town to see Jake and Jon. They start telling me how they want family time and I can't go into town. I was so mad! I wanted to go spend the rest of my summer with my friends! Well I lost the battle, of course they are older then me. My dad just started being nice to me because he felt bad the other say when I told him I hated him. He resently stopped drinking too. I still hate him. I go to bed angry.
Thoughts that day: School is so close; Not everyone is your friend.

School is on Tueday. I am so excited! Seeing these people remind me of how I get to see everyone at school. I really am super stoked.
Not everyone is your friend. I think that by telling them all my thoughts on people that they will become friends with them during the school year and tell them every little insegnificant thing that I said. It kinda sucks.

Sunday.
I wake up and eat breakfast at camp. Go home to take a shower my mom is a bit stressed because she always feels she has to do everything. My grandfather recently got out of the hospital and she has to care for my grandparents needs. She has to clean everything. She also has to entertain the family and have time to herself. Not to meantion work, which she took off for 2-3 weeks because of everything she has to do. We were suppose to go the mall but I told her she doesn't have to. I feel bad for her. I'm the only one who really helps in the whole family. I go to the campground and meet up with Chantel later on after my cousin Brit! arives. We go to the movie up at the pavillion and go on a galfcart ride. At the end of the day though, we all hang out at my camper prank calling people. We prank called many but the best was Erik. Cody Martian was at his house and talking like he knew us. It was really funny. We got inside when Chantel and the rest left. Ryan and Mason start teasing me and Brit! about petty things but I really didn't mind. She took it way to offensivly and stormed outside. I thought she was completly out of line so I didn't go after her. Ryan and Mason followed her and making fun of her once again. She told her mom and my drunk dad. Ryan goes outside and automaticly gets his ass kicked. It was horrible.  Mason gets yelled at. It was Brit! at fault. She wants to get everyone in trouble. My dad does not beat me because I'm the girl of the family. It all ended with My dad saying sorry to everyone and a stupid make up. I hate it. I wish Brit! could just stop the drama act.
Thoughts on Saturday: Brit! and Mason are both brats.
Oh my goodness. I am so glad my brother and I get along as well as we do. It is so annoying to have to watch Brit! and Mason fight. They are so petty and they don't even need to do hardly anything to each other to get in a fight. I know it's hard with your parents going through a divorce but really guys, get a grip.

Monday
Today I get up with Brit and go to eat breakfast. I had to make toast so I hardly even get any breakfast. :\ Ryan is being mean and gets sent to the car, like he deserves. We get dressed and go to the mall. I get 4 shirts which my mother really didn't have to get me. I was really happy with them though. Brit got a dress which was really cute. More cute on me though. I feel bad. Brit doesn't have the curves I have. Ryan got 3 shorts and 2 shirts. We go back to camp and Brits mom is back, she didn't stay the night before. We just hang out and me and brit go tubing and catch cute wittle toads. It was fun. Brit, Mason, and Amy home after dinner and we go to help take home everything. I asked Brit! about me borrowing that dress and she kind of was hissitent. akljfdl;a! It's really gorgeous. We go home and I get ready for school which is, tomorrow! Oh my goodness it's really exciting. I have to wake up at 6:30 though. Oh well.
Thoughts on today: I wish I had a job, My brother compared to me.
I really wish I had a job. I loved all the clothes I got today but I always feel horrible for letting my mm buy me so much. If I had a job, I wouldn't have to feel as bad.
Ryan get's everything. He doesn't get punished too long because my parents don't want to hear him whine. If I whined though, I would feel bad. I don't want to stress my mom out anymore then she already is. I wish he would be nice to my parents. Or atleast they should punish him a bit harsher so he might learn something.

I'm Holly. Face to face, I'm usually nice. But I do talk behind people's backs far too often. I hate how I fall in love with very boy I talk to long enough, and then I get mad at people who do the same. I do take into account that I am pretty. Not as pretty as you probably, but good-looking enough. I consider myself a little more amazing than the average teenager; which sounds unbelievably stupid. My head races too much, I think about things I know my friends don't think about. In ways I act though I am the adverage teenager. I have a problem with everyone. Everyone bugs me at some point in my life. One thing I don't do is lie. I hope I don't turn out as a huge failure. I want to die knowing I have largly impacted the future. I'm not so strong in my faith anymore. I'll be questioning for awhile now who is god. I get jealous way to easy; if you're pretty; if you're super nice; if you're well-liked; I will be jealous of you. Don't be offended. I'm really honestly scared of relationships. They have done nothing but hurt me, until I find the one who I think I will marry, I am not dating. I'm not too good of a person, but I was never always like this. The world did this to me.


Posts coming tomorrow.